Stare at the mirror, set it afire,
the dark bile rises,
and you let someone else scream
tears flow down your insides,
your torn and burnt and continue to live

how i sometimes hate being me!!

wake up in the land of dreams,
in a bed of three as empty as me,
my modern condo 'hues' of white,
i live alone isnt it a perfect life
walk out on the matallic streets,
in my metallic car no one bothers me,
look at the beggar girl at the corner,
and think to myself "life's too fast to greet tough luck
so will you forgive me sister of mine?"

at work its satisfaction guranteed,
in my cubicle enveloped in steel,
clicking away at my lonely console
dont you think we're matched by whole?
think of the old man at the department store,
he calls me 'kid' so i give him a call,
order some groceries to be delivered home
and think to myself "lifes too fast to meet tough luck
so will you forgive me father of mine?

and then i dream of judgement day,
dont know why but anyway,
the lord asked me one thing alone,
"i gave youlife, i gave you love'
i gave you a world you could grow from,
you froze it, burnt it, cut it down,
biult your own world of stell n stone,
you loved no one, had no peace,
so i ask just one question answer please,
"do you forgive yourself daughter of mine?"

missin you

memories are so beautiful, fragile and colourful...
they soothe the hurt of the rugged roads..
but most of the time id just rather have you here
strength always came easy.. once upon a time
fought the world took it in my stride...
but dont ask be to be srtong about you,
tis something i can do naught,
and every street knows your name
evrywhere i go visions of us together
the concrete jungle and the streets of steel
they hold our life togther, cruel they remind me..
and memories they're beautiful, fragile and colourful
they try to soothe the wounds of this gruel,
but most of the time, let me be honest
yes most of the time it would be a blessing to have you here

dedicated to friends n loves that used to be....

sittin here by the lone window on the bare wall,
looking at all thats happened n happening still,
it hurts to see the truth, just this harshly put,
how fickle the human heart,
how fickle the human hearts dealings,
how we laughed, loved, hurt n cried,
how the intimacy grew like deadly vines,
n how now, strangers to ourselves we flee.......

hey there big man,
hope alls well in heaven,
give me a moment will u,
thers something you need to do,
come breathe with me,
come be fickle as only i can be,
come see what its like,
let me show you,
what it feels lik to be human.

hey you saint, let me show,
you the joys of sin,
feel the pain of being in love,
the joy of wanting to die for someone,
waiting for someone in the rain,
come see the way it burns to be,
green with envy,
see what it feels like,
to hold a child of your own,
come and be silly,
dance around on the street,
come be responsible,
for noone but you,
come let go,
come be proud of nothing,
see the thrill of fear,
how it chills to wal,
k around the dark corner,
laugh like its your way to survive,
cry like you bet the world and lost,
come let me give you an insight,
let me show you the ways of the human.

how long has it been now,
we wait here in the silent night,
the air still like its waiting too,
like us for the absolution we need,
why dont we break away love,
we can if we choose,
this life is ours and we can make it,
take my hand il show you our haven.

you fear the dark alleys,
you fear the strong wind,
in those deep brown eyes of yours,
these i see and know,
but we can choose to break away love,
n i can save you from the devil,
well get through the dark,
take my hand and il show you our haven.

its been a weary ride for both of us,
our feet blistered and souls are battered,
dont stop now though,
not when salvation is a door away,
we are going to break away from it love,
the end is near, the beginning nearer,
im not going anywhere without you now,
take my hand and il show you our haven....